I Myself AM Strange And Unusual
“Well, I’ve read through that handbook for the recently deceased. It says: ‘live people ignore the strange and unusual’. I myself AM strange and unusual.”
This is one of my favorite movie lines of all time(s).
It seemed to sum up everything for me.
EV-ER-Y-THIIIIIIING.
About how I moved through the world… how I felt God and traversed realms even before I knew that was a thing… how once I realized that was a thing and that other people weren’t seeming to do it, it finally made sense about how awkward this whole humaning thing had always felt to me… how the things that came through me as a portal were just as real to me as the whole physical realm/body thing…
And on and on and on.
It also led to a couple decades of utter shitshow shenanigans, between me and my art… and the EXPRESSION of that art {read: REPRESSION}.
And you? How is this potentially {ok let’s get real, 100% abso-fucking-LUTELY} affecting your creativity, business, sex life, pussy magic, soul medicine, and every damn THING?
Well, read on, Wild One. Read on.
Cuz shit’s about to get real.
The problem is not that you don’t know how to create or what to create.
The problem is not that you have too many ideas and skills.
The problem is not that you are oh-so-confused by the depths and majesty of your own damn self.
The problem, when it comes down to it, when you get really real with yourself, in the dark of night, when there’s nothing and no one left, save you, God, and soul…
Is this:
You have been taught to believe that the things that make you YOU are problematic and bothersome and too “out there”…
And that who you ARE is holding you back from actualizing into the next level of who you are being called to BE.
Meaning:
You’ve been running around your life, ignoring, avoiding, vilifying, fighting, and trying your damned best to ANNIHILATE the very things that will shift you into your everything.
Your magic.
Your weirdness.
Your quirks.
The shit that people do that raises your hackles and has you going into full-on mama bear protector status.
The desires that you’ve kept hidden in the darkest recesses of your mind and body, for fear that you really should be “working on them more” and that they’re the reason you haven’t been able to go to the next level in whatever area you are currently being commanded, by soul, to #GoddessTheFuckUp.
Your ability to see in the dark and walk on air.
Your capacity to access the quantum and God consciousness without a thought, without needing to go to school for it, without needing to use plant medicine and travel to the ends of the earth to find it… because you’ve been able to access it ALL ALONG. But you’ve told yourself that people couldn’t UNDERSTAND you and they wouldn’t BUY from you and they would LEAVE you, unless you could trace your wisdom to a whole fuck ton of living teachers and schools and METHODOLOGIES first.
Get the gist?
Now, do I looooove me some mentoring and studying and ceremony and traveling and teachings and lineage and #allthethings?
Fuck. Yes.
But the difference?
I stopped believing that my inherent weirdness and ability to access the magic and the medicine and BE THE PORTAL was dependent upon any of those things.
I do those things because they’re fun and ALIGNED for me.
Not because I “have to” do them in order to create and unleash the primordial depths of my soul and translate it into a business and mission that turn ON my soul.
Get it?
Got it?
Goooooooood.
So, your invitation today:
Where have you encoded the belief that your strange and unusual BEINGNESS was either not enough or was standing in the way of your next level?
And… What else might be true?
As always…
Here’s to your untaming,
N
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More:
There is a knowing within the depths of you.
A place untouched and undomesticated by humanity or society, by industry or culture.
A sovereign land where your Soul Self resides and howls your forgotten name into the night.
And you are now being called to remember this fertile ground, where your power and your truth roam free.
You are now being drawn into the web of your own Creator Consciousness, to reawaken and {re}wild into the primordial muck of who the fuck you ARE.
To do so will require a reckoning.
A reckoning of body, breath, and bone.
A reckoning where your blood begins to flow with ancient magic and reverence once more.
And, should you choose it, a reckoning that intoxicates your next evolution of magic and soul into your reality NOW.
Is this the deep work?
Of course.
But we get to choose to surrender into its depths through the devotional portal of Orgasmic Waking Bliss.
With jaguar’s tail marking our reclamation in the dirt and with wolf’s throat baying our liberation to the moon.
This, Wild One… This is where we begin.
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